Why I Cannot

I cannot
let go

I think it is because
as EE Cummings would have said


I know my nerveless grasp
one day
will relax

But not now
It's not safe

With you
There is complexity
and parasympathetic sexuality
a nervous tension I am not familiar with

but you smell good
and you tastevenbetter

and you
are the reason
if anyoneeverneededone
that I am a hopeless romantic
and from eros
and chaos
and dark winged night


and the pilot strong
who knows the waters
carries on

that my soul is

I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
with closed eyes
to dash against darkness

unless you love someone
nothing else makes sense