What I Need

What I Need
is to lose some weight
convert some fat to muscle
drop a few pounds

I need a good job
and a decent mate
someone who won't be abusive
someone I can be around

I need to cut the crap
get done what I've been putting off
move on from the past
believe in the power of love

I need to go downstairs
My kitten is mewling
that strange half muffled kind of sound
of pride and hunger through a chipmunk or squirrel

She wants me to pick it up
and pet her on the head
And say Thank You Kali
and stroke her fur, once
A little like good kink
not too much emotion
sort of not making love, just fucking

And then I will throw chipmunk or squirrel
she'll race across the floor
and eat it while its warm
and leave a part or two near the door

I need to remember to clean that up
freshkill on your doorway
is bad Feng Shui

I need to remember
the plans I made last september
the leaves and the wind and the winter
I need to remember wednesday
old friends and the day before school
the trip to India
Peace, love
and kink