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A new video was released today showing that Benazir Butto slumped after the gunshots rang out - we know that the assassin shot three times at her then blew himself up. The official report showed that the blast of the bomb drove Benazir into a lever on her sunroof and the trauma and impact killed her. However, after three shots were fired at very close range - you see from the first shot, her headscarf flying up. That wasn't the wind. The local police were directed to refuse to allow the local doctors in attendance at the E/R to do the autopsy. Apparently the attending doctors were not allowed to examine the body ... because Al Qaeda did it? Yesterday Bill Richardson has called for the Resignation of Pervez Musharraf. They say that the art of diplomacy is when someone tells you to go to hell, then gives you directions, and you enjoy the ride. How do you tell someone to go to hell, who lives in Pakistan ? I mean, suppose you try to to get to hell from Pakistan? Aren...

McCain has peaked in recent polls. to the top of the heap. This builds on a previous contention, what I said earlier holds. The GOP is an aristocracy. The fact that Ron Paul can't even get airtime on Faux despite having raised more money in a single day than any other candidate in history lets you know exactly what is going to happen. Indie leaning voters out of the GOP will either head to the dems (60%) or they will flock to Ron Paul. Breaking the 10 percent barrier, Paul will decide to run independent. Faux news being unable to stoop so low as to bring on a guy who has a passionate, loyal following and a large amount of cash - will give the already galvanized supporters yet more ammunition to strike out like Ross Perot. Just for what its worth, let's hope she picks Bill Richardson as the new Secretary of State. Ohio was a narrow race despite a sitting president during wartime running unopposed in his own party - against a boston brahmin ? The fact that McCain is surgi...

The Pakistani government quickly diagnosed the death of Benazir Bhutto, as "accidental/hit-her-head" and then moved to offer a made-for-tv-movie telephone conversation record putatively intercepted by ever-vigilant Pakistani Intelligence Officials (who did nothing to prevent the actual attack). Think carefully about the conclusions that are supposed to be drawn: are you supposed to have a warm, fuzzy feeling in your gut about the fact that governments now monitor your phone calls without your consent? I suppose you think of yourself as a conservative - I guess you're happy to realize that you're paying some government official every time you talk to your mom now. And the second conclusion? That Al Qaeda killed Benazir Butto? That one deserves even more thought. Benazir was taken out by an assassin's bomb - she had been fired at and then the bomber blew himself up. The blast blew her forward into a lever on her sunroof and cracked her skull open. Although ther...

The song that remains the same. Everyone has a place they come home to. I can hear the sound of children playing from the street. The waves. Its not quite California; I've long ago given up hope for four foot walls out here. Its ok. I guess its home. Our next door neighbor named their little girl Rush. That is so cool, if you ask me. Its a great name. There are little ones running around, playing in the front yard. A happy day. There will be a big party tomorrow night, everyone will come by. Its sort of a tradition. Naturally I'm in here hacking on code. Last night I won an argument with my dad. It was easy. All I had to do was agree with him, repeatedly and right up front until he heard me. I think he was kind of in shock. Note to self: leverage the element of surprise. Merry Christmas Everyone. =)

Keep a sense of humour Remember, that its not your life - its someone elses Have faith in something, even if its only yourself Expect pain Sacrifice yourself if it helps. Otherwise, play for keeps Stay heads down even if everyone is going crazy. Kiss away tears Grab the back of the wrist, not the front. You won't get cut Be willing to fight the crowd What they're saying about the people they love, is really about themselves Protect all children but teach them and play with them more Make lists, even things that are soulbound. Plan the work Work the plan Pain is weakness leaving the body Lance Armstrong Rocks "There is no limit to what a man can achieve as long as he doesn't care who get's the credit". - Bob Woodruff. (Coca Cola Corporation). If you can believe it I spent last night in a manger. I am not kidding. We ate s'mores and traded bad jokes; the christ child was a cabbage patch doll. The virgin mary was a chemis...

Because one day I'll leave you, a phantom, to lead you in the summer...

How to fix second life: Change Second Life so that there is scheduled downtime from 5 am to 11 am PST (SLT) once per week. Six hours is enough time for the network team to perform scheduled maintenance, and upgrade systems. Aggressively implement upgrades to your physics engines (make sure that you give the network team time to do so, see item 1.) . High end physics engines will help reduce lag. Power consuption on your blade servers has been an issue. Invest in a fuel cell setup to cut your costs and provide clean UPS power. Also, you may wish to look at allowing the server to be licensed to allow people to build their own SL network grid outside of yours. The client browser should be modified to a heavy client. Your client is easy to download, and you have done good work with your updater. A client which offloads terabytes of graphic processing will improve your situation dramatically. It is worthwhile to have a heavier client given the size of the world; clientside...

freddy = the girl , eddy is the guy. I like those two.

This is a post about the sanskrit wedding ritual (yes, that group of people that gave us this thing called "written language"). A hindu wedding is at sunset and then that night the bride and grooms friends and family party until dawn. The morning of that second day, in the blue hour, the brides family starts bargaining with the groom's family and friends. They won't even let him go to the restroom. Its a serious proposition: this money is not a dowry, its a sum that will finance a really cool party that the bride's friends and family get to throw later (it can happen any time, a week a month later - no kids allowed - its sort of movie and restaurant money, in some sense). So, at dawn on the first day, the bleary eyed groom agrees to an amount and it is paid to a due representative of the bride's close friends and family who will store and account for it later. The bride and groom will then rest a bit. The afternoon of the first day is the ceremony of ...

Here is a question you get all the time. Is there a god? Does god exist? Do you believe in God? I dreamt last night I looked up at the night sky and I saw part of the milky way. I was on a lake shore with friends. The stars were bright and blue. There was a warmth to our companionship. And there was a band across the sky and I could look and see the center of the galaxy. It was a warm moment, but the sky was so clear. I woke up. Spend time wondering about the question. Do you ever look up at the stars? Do that for questions sometimes. Just the question alone might be worth it. Is god real? Is that the question? All you have to do , to destroy the most beautiful theory is bring up one ugly fact. I was there on the dark shore looking up at the most beautiful thing I could ever imagine. And yet somewhere I knew stars are disappearing at the center of our galaxy - I knew that, at the center. Is the beast. A black hole with a radius the size of the distance of jupiter, to our ...

Ever since I gave SL the heave-ho (not really, but sort of) I've been reading again (not really, but sort of). My latest book is "Its not about the Bike" - My Journey Back to Life - By Lance Armstrong. (who started out as a triathlete, by the way..) I have a class of book that I really enjoy reading that I use not unlike a swordsman would use a sharpening stone. I firmly classify Jon Krakauer into this category , cf. "Into Thin Air" , and "Under the Banner of Heaven". I also enjoyed "The White Spider" by Heinrich Harrer. Lance's book fits into this category. There's a passage in the "Its not about the Bike" that I find fairly intriguing. It is his personal account of the first moments Lance awakens after radical brain surgery (removing necrotic tissue, not unlike a stroke, of sorts - stroke survivors weather internal damage without biopsy). Lance goes down for Brain surgery, and he's given three things to remember ...

Ruby on Rails is a good way to get your web development done. I'm considering switching from PHP to Rails; its a solid framework. XAMPP is just ever so slightly glitched.. How cool? Ok, read the documentation and tell me for yourself! - How many development platforms have an xkcd comic documentation team that can teach you how to use it in like, two issues? Have you ever heard about this stuff? What do you think? Was the documentation fun?

I've decided to stop writing about kinky sex. My new topic is going to be... kinky sex! =D Slight variation can have really big effects, given a system that is dependent upon initial condition. Couples, for example, are coupled systems. Things can get exponential. Especially if you have kids. I have always felt personally that grasping the infinite is possible, within the harbor of a relationship because of a simple idea. Think of a number, the largest number you can think of. Now, hold that number in your mind. That number is , for all practical purposes infinity. But it is a number, so its not infinity. Ok, now suppose you knew someone really well and you could share many things with her. Let her walk up. She can think of that number you're thinking of, but, because she can visualize a different number - she can simply think of whatever number you're thinking of, and then add one to it. Alone, you are thinking of a finite number. I don't know if the mind can...

" Your religion is not the garb you wear outwardly, but the garment of light you weave around your heart. Discover who you are, behind those outer trappings, and you will discover who Jesus was, and Buddha, and Krishna. For the masters come to earth for the purpose of holding up to every man a reflection of his deeper, eternal Self. " - Paramhansa Yogananda

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt Still a little hard to say what's going on Still a little bit of your ghost your witness Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed You step a little closer each day Still I can't say what's going on Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to lie Life taught me to die So it's not hard to fall When you float like a cannonball Still a little bit of your song in my ear Still a little bit of your words I long to hear You step a little closer to me So close that I can't see what's going on Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to lie Life taught me to die So it's not hard to fall When you float like a cannon Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to cry So come on courage! Teach me to be shy 'Cause it's not hard to fall And I don't wanna scare her It's not hard to fall And I don't ...

As of today , I would like to announce my latest addiction. I am completely addicted to World of Warcraft. Yes, the same game I made fun of three months ago. Hey, I wanted to bash my sex drive into nothingness. And besides, I paid a month subscription, darnit. I am going to finish the month. I have leveld up almost 60 levels and they say I'm doing it really fast. I have a talent for this stuff. But I have also noticed that I am hanging out with guys who eat cold pizza for breakfast. Therefore.. I plan to submit myself to the nearest "WoW Anonymous" group, where I will sit in a circle with people who are suffering from the same affliction, in the earnest hope that, by following a 12 step program of recovery, I will be able to get near a WoW client and not end up playing for two hours at a time. At present, I am losing weight, and in danger of becoming a skeleton at the keyboard with cobwebs hanging from me. Late at night, of course. When no one will notice I am gone...

Razorblade (Emily) tapped me to be part of the meme (rhymes with "mean"). I thought to myself. Ok. Sure. Why not. I read up on it, and this is supposed to be some kind of art form . At any rate, I will play. Eight (8) facts about turnerBroadcasting ... I am an ex-surfer. Landlocked. This is probably the most important fact about me. Once a surfer, always a surfer. I lived on a cliff / surfed when it was on/ dive and snorkel every day when it was not. Then I lived on the coast, used to sail every day. When I went to college in Florida, I spent a year and a half out into the woods with tanks and dropping into springs and diving caverns and caves underneath the forest. (bumpersticker: Paddle Faster. ..I think I hear a Banjo ). I can find lobsters by the vibrations they make in the ocean. If you give me a set of gloves, a rubberband, a stick and a catchbag I can bring you back a six course seafood dinner. We hunted the big wave - I once surfed double overhead ...

At 10:33 tonight, ESDT, I was standing outside near the silver comet rail trail (around mile 1.4) and I heard something. It was really really faint, i couldn't even describe the sound but it made me turn my head quickly. I looked up and just caught a huge meteor burning across the horizon. In the sky/ North by Northwest of Atlanta there was a giant green meteor, it was really moving fast. It struck somewhere near what appeared to be south marietta (?) - it was brilliant, round and green. The trail it left was not persistent. It reminded one of a comet - but it was not quite that. Origin: Lat: 33.848525 /33:50:54.690N - Lon: -084.541582/ 84:32:29.695W. second point would be due northwest of that location. Probably within 30 miles but can't be sure, since the treeline obscured the impact site. So draw your line out that way, you might get it. The meteor was as big as your thumb, if you held it at arms length. I am trying to figure out what to do. I called 911 and...

Origa - (Player) [Final Fantasy Ten/ AMV]. Turnerbroadcasting is currently... ( please choose one): A) On vacation B) In rehab C) Incarcerated ..I will be back in: A) Five days B) Ten weeks C) Six years to life Colorless awakens december 10th. To: Ms. Lee. Its all about trust. >:)

World of Warcraft is way fun. Its a massive, multiplayer online role playing game and birth control device . I have never played anything like it.I caught myself posting on craigslist.. ah ... lets not get into that. Lets just say it works great on two levels. Its a game. And its also one of the most happily violent experiences I have ever had. (ever had one of those days where you wanted to kill twenty people? WoW lets you discover that you're not alone.. ) For WoW, I am warning you +not+ to watch this clip .. (some people just don't have enough to do. lets be honest. these guys have no life.) I sort of wonder what burnout looks like in SL; I wonder if its a function of loneliness? I know what burnout in WoW will look like - you'll notice that you're not really doing anything great, there's no real grand quest or honor its just a person sitting at a computer playing a game. I have never felt that way with SL, its kind of like a really interesting cellpho...

She picked up the book I was reading and threw it across the room I had fallen asleep the night before that was what I did wrong. I should not have fallen asleep reading +this+ book It was about someone named Sultana and her friends are pretty rich a person in england that I met in second life told me about this book she was a young indian woman awaiting arranged marriage and, in SL, an erotic dancer in real life, I think, a database administrator we traded books I recommended "animals in translation" by someone who uses autism to decode animal behavior and it being so hard to find, for her, as well she ordered it online but that didn't matter because to the one who was angry at me every female is the same and I am cheating on her again and the book is probably about sex (it was about abuse) Anger makes you feel like you are right even when you are wrong and thats dangerous in the film "secretary" the protagonist is methodical...

I wonder sometimes what its like to be able to see yourself living your own life like a person can look into the tide pool at low tide and see the life there swimming around free its about creation growing out of destruction what makes us cross the thin red line that separates us from nature why does fate hold a subway sandwich in one hand and tokyoi drift in the other ? she offers you tastyness then turns you straight into oncoming traffic she is who she is we are who we are Why is war a part of all living things? it doesn't come from the dust it doesn't spring from the air and yet we are born to it I suppose you've seen it all before but one goes east and one goes west, both from the same wind blow its the setting of the sail and not the gale that tell us the way to go So we cross the line, we make our choice the dragon and the dove - rejoice we have choice locked forever in eternal conflict (to carry one) under the banner of heaven I as...

What a day today. I wrote out a proposal on Thursday, won it. And then got sick. (Pink Eye - at least part of it. damnit damnit. That stuff is way contagious. You know you have it if you can't open your eyes in the morning. I am sorry if I gave it to you.. ) My friend from Copenhagen came in and I would have done the work on friday but that got shot. Then saturday night I am at this way cool bar - we are talking ebony heaven, and I am still slightly sick. Would have just been slightly drunk as well if it weren't for a girl named Cyan. So that was a nice thing. It always seems for me that I beat any bug I get by just lying down and sleeping it off. And so Sunday I just passed out and it was four hours later, cold sweat and I am ok now. I guess. Had to work late, late sunday night. Grr.. My friend really helped out, he gave me this ginseng extract and somehow that cut the edge off of it all. I think I am better today. We were supposed to meet with this Korean investor on ...

Part of why I write here is that this is a kind of whiteboard for the sould / a kind of search for equillibrium. Life in the 21st century can be a wash of toxic ideas. Things that create soul rifts. Madison Avenue is populated by voidwalkers whose sole purpose is to remove the connections society forges to resist false hope or perception , and replace them with a sort of constant , driven framework of spend and release that results in making their clients rich. They drive home messages that should be entirely unrelated to selling soap. And they dare us even now to say what that is... its a totally cynical approach ... Another problem , I find, is in the alternate lifestyle I lead. Take for example, skateboarding. At some point it became more important to be seen as a skateboarder than to actually skate. A guy who could do a 3 foot ollie but sang in the choir on sunday was persona non grata. Stacey Peralta used to have this problem sometimes. In the end, of my readers I only ask ...

Across a crowded room. In competition, individual ambition serves the common good?

Here is an interesting situation. Suppose there is someone you really like, and you want to +have their children!!++ No seriously. Lets say, as we always start out here, that you're just a single cell in the sea and suddenly there she is. The protozoa of your dreams. Her cilia blowing in the breeze. The sunlight catching her translucent body. She has curves in places that aren't even places, on other protozoas. You say to yourself. Wow. What a protozoa! Whoa.. Alright. So now you want to drift your life over to hers, somehow, in a sea containing 9 billion others of both you and her. Violet Blue wrote alot about the reality of sex on the internet. Alot of people are using the internet as a means of connectivity (facebook/myspace, et.al.) . Here's something I found thats fairly neat - on youTube, there is this attractive , sort of asian looking girl called lonelygirl15 that would, to an average male, be irresistable. At least, irresistible enough to search for her among...

Hillary Clinton is tracking now to be the first Female President of the United States. There are a lot of liberal views on what that means, however I'd like to offer an independent view. I have blogged alot about Richardson, but thats because I'm actually cool in real life. This person below is who is going to win. First, lets establish the one thing she will probably get done in her tenure. She will work out a Government takeover of health insurance, or at minimum, get a universal health plan out there that will be so price competitive every business and individual in the United States will likely switch to it. This is not by a long stretch of the imagination; in her tenure as First Lady, she just about got the job done and was shut down by the GOP ( paradoxically enough ). Health Insurance and in general, the markets for healthcare in America are really, really effed up - with procedures and billing going through the roof in terms of costs, driving up premiums and brin...

He says the problem with teachers is, "What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in life was to become a teacher?" He reminds the other dinner guests that it's true what they say about teachers: Those who can, do; those who can't, teach. I decide to bite my tongue instead of his and resist the temptation to remind the dinner guests that it's also true what they say about lawyers. Because we're eating, after all, and this is polite company. "I mean, you¹re a teacher, Taylor," he says. "Be honest. What do you make?" And I wish he hadn't done that (asked me to be honest) because, you see, I have a policy about honesty and ass-kicking: if you ask for it, I have to let you have it. You want to know what I make? I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could. I can make a C+ feel like a Congressional medal of honor and an A- feel like a slap in the face. How dare you waste...

I want first, to be able to hear what people have to say, and know what they're thinking and feeling. I want to be able to know someone's heart - not have it replace mine or be swept up in what they feel necessarily - but I want to really be able to listen to someone. All the great men I look up to could do this. Thomas Jefferson. P.A.M. Dirac. Albert Einstein. Von Karajan. Bono. All great listeners. Then, I want to be wealthy. Not just money, but also family and , for lack of a better term - in love. I want to have a big heart. I want to be like old Fezziwig, in Charles Dicken's "A Christmas Carol". I want people to enjoy themselves at my home. I want to play music that they like, and not creep them out by playing some three chord song about pain and death. Fun stuff like "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen". .... just checking! :-) I want to be wise. I want to have the fear of the lord in me - for all of you atheists out there (ok,at least I know th...

Ran about a mile today, and it felt great, and I was fast. I think I've finally cracked the code. The reason I've been doing marathons this year was that my triathlon 10k - I hit that run at the point of swim/bike/run and it looks just so huge - I really was getting down - it was looking like a hill too far. So I took a year off, dealt dope down at denny's restaurant keeps a table in the back.. oh wait a minute. Wrong song. So, I ran marathons this year and they taught me +precisely+ what it means to have a hill too far I know now that my whole run thing was mental. I was afraid of getting injured. One of my friends told me that sometimes you're going to have to just give it 120 percent and just really leave nothing of yourself for the finish line, once and then you'll be able to do it. I couldn't even walk after the marathon, for like. Two days. Definitely an injury but I recover fast it seems. The wind was cold today , I was viking. My cool neighbor...

Marathon's over. I finished. I am happy. I am tired. I am proud of myself. I am thankful for lori, and sara , who ran with me. What a buzz. Blew the hamster at 17 mile. Fought to the finish line. Had a great time at the half, well good enough. Like, 2:15. or something like that. But at mile 17. Pain. This was an exercise in sheer tenacity. I was cold, in pain and i could barely even walk. Made a slow run to the finish line. I am buzzed right now like you would not believe. And also. Quite honestly. I am in amazing pain. Update 11/23: Wow, what a night. I spent the whole night just writhing in pain. It was like a fever dream, like one of those muscle cramps that wake you up? 3:00 am was the worst then the fever broke. I was at mile 17 at a time of 3:00 hours, totally on track for a sub five hour finish. At 2:15 at the turn, my finish would have been 1:48, assuming I slowed down to a 12 minute mile / for a finish of 4:48. My time total was 6:10, which is after they pick...

Ok I am in a fully de-trained state and I am going to do a full olympic distance marathon tomorrow. I am scared to death. My very cool neighbor, that just moved in a couple of months ago because I live on a bike trail - is training for a full ironman in Switzerland early next year, and I have started training with her. I am tired of being (in the words of one of my friend's dad when I lived in florida..) "Slower than a herd of fertile turtles". I can smoke anyone on the bike trail, keep a 24 mph pace without dying (I just feel like dying), I can find your favorite darkness in the swim (you will be floating face down if you try to catch me). The run. To give you an example of how bad, on my 10k I paced 12 minutes per mile. Let me explain. The run is where I literally, at one point, wanted to jump up on the back of the runner in front of me and have him carry me across the finish line. When you have thoughts like that, you have to wonder whats going on. I'm not ...

Apparently Google is working on a secret project: their dead giveaway hiring people who are skilled in TV backgrounds. The move seems to be related to an internal initiative to find the ways that people can advertise for TV and deliver video on demand. You can do the same thing with the DJIA if you just watch transport stocks, when they dive that means the next quarter retail will take a hit coz they're shipping the shelf merchandise. (did I ever mention I traded for a season?) What is the role of search, in energy driven networks of molecules? Surely we all have preferences for what we want to see, whether its in a mate, or in content we download from the net, or whatever. And if we are talking about an iterative process that can punctuate itself over thousands of years, in fits and starts - we are talking about similiarity and complement in that affinity. We can search for the things that attract us, or the things that annoy us. So that search capability is part of the driv...

I have heard of a blog entitled "Acceptable Use Policy". Its a great double entendre, if you had met the person - who also seems to be a quite eloquent and pleasant individual at first impression. Its a cool name, but this calls up a post I made earlier (last month ) that was a send-up of a talk given by Violet Blue. The blog name is completely blown away in search result, by results that point to the canonical form of "Acceptable Use"; a legal document that is signed by end users, which clarify and define the acceptable uses of a given network. What Violet said (way more fun than what Barry Said!), about the reality of sex on the internet in this case - holds true. The terms don't line up and people cannot self-identify here. She said that the ability to search for something on the net, as it relates to sexual terms, can be the difference between safe, healthy sexual encounters (which are part of the adventure of being an adult), and/or possibly somethi...

Why is it that there are substances we can take, that change the way we feel, or organisms in the world that can for all intents and purposes change who we are? Today I scrubbed a virus off a workstation, that had interrupted DNS services on the machine. It was an "enhancement" to the browser that an end user had installed. So, if you think of the body as like a kind of program executing code, virus code re-writes part of it, running within the body in a similiar, parasitic manner to virus code on workstations. It was really interesting that the uninstall for this virus was on another machine. If our lives are like loops, this is kind of like saying to get over someone you would need to rebound first. Which is, in other words, a way of saying that the virus is set up not to be removed. Any software you want to get rid of, that will let you get rid of it - will have an uninstall. Its easier to develop and test. Like people you think are fake, alarm systems go off when some...

Alright. You've likely seen this before; - The clip below entitled "What Barry Said" by Knife Party . I grant that its conclusions are alarmist the chances of the US attacking its - own ally are admittedly remote - however the key thing here is perhaps content is still relevant, and that is the significance. Does anyone remember the doctrine of "Pre-emptive Self Defense" ? "The smoking gun, should not become a nuclear mushroom cloud?".. I try to keep my criticisms simple and very specific. In this case, if what you see here is still ringing true, then after the jump, you'll have a solution for it . But first. If you haven't see this already.. Here's "What Barry Said": ... Still relevant? Thats the scary part. A player change gives you just a chance, nothing more - to fix it. The rhetoric here in this electoral season is still status quo. What can you do? BAR. Ban anonymous riders. Millions have been spent so far keeping th...

A riddle: .. Once in a land of the first age, there was an angel soldier and a king. A hero, and a princess. The king had many loyal subjects, but the princess, the very mistress of life, was more beautiful than the sunrise. Now this young princess was to be given in marriage to the hero who had secretly won her hand and her vow. And the news disturbed the land The soldiers of two countries plotted against the union, for it would mean the corruption of their perfect bloodline. A woman with blonde hair, and pale skin said "he is the devil himself my lord, do not let this marriage stand. it is blasphemy". And so the king, was corrupted by this, and he and his angel soldier set upon a course to remove the young lord from the hand of the princess. He took two cards. On one, was a picture of a golden, shining ring. On the other, was a picture of a blackend cross. And then he and his Angel soldier, quietly took another card with a blackened cross in his sleeve. The King ...