Double X

That sense that she stores
the things that we see and feel
and can repeat and reveal
and truly understand the feelings
and scene in which the impression was struck

She can dream of things before
and hold and preserve and love
and carry forward to safety the being within
and nurse it until it is strong

I cannot compete against her girlfriend
so perfect, so much the same
I can only hope
the differences
can be fun as well
and my shaky world
and tenuous hold
on life
sometimes in the twitch of the muscle
or the tear against the perfect kiss

against her double X
against her breast